Hiya Broken Dolly.

Dont fret. Most of the pictures ( of not only Ageplay but ) of any sort of women ( either online or on TV or in the media in general) are usually stick thin and thats because as a rule photographers ( especially and not exclusively fetish photographers ) prefer to use paid for models. Its certainly easier when it comes to keeping your copyright and proving a subject of a photographs age. What you need to remember is that amateurs who like to step forward to reveal this side of themselves are very rare and ones who arent a perfect size zero.. even less likely to step forward. So to produce material in any viable quantity to support a full “paid for” site they always choose to shoot models. This skews the ratio of pictures you come across online somewhat. This affects the scene as its the model shots are mass of the images that people have available to trade on sites like tumblr and also explains why real amature photographs are so highly sought after by the collectors.

Take solice in the facts that most of the little girls I have come across are not of that model proportion in the real world, simply because women of any fetish are not defined by a particular body type. I know and have known and played with “model” physique girls who genuinely enjoy ageplay, but most ladies just aren’t that physique. From my current girls I look after I would say there is an even split and I would also say they pretty much reflect the wide spectrum of body types.

So don’t get yourself trapped and stuck down with such a inwardly negative notion that there wont be a daddy for you because you don’t appear on the surface to be the ideal little girl because ageplay is a state of mind. A daddy wants a little girl within, first and foremost aswell as without. Being little is certainly not dependant on your waist size or shoe size or how tall you are. All of those things mean nothing if they dont feel little inside themselves. Its that what drives a daddy. The rest is just set decoration to the great theatre of play.

As for your past history. Im afraid as most daddies will testify, different forms of mental issues are prevalant in many ( but of course not all ) little girls and of course all other fetish aware individuals. You are not unusual in that respect. It isnt anything specific or any condition in general, its just that most people, especially those interested in fetish related play ( including daddies - shh BIG secret!!!) have some sort of issue. Thats just life you know. Lifes journey stresses and sometimes breaks people in a myriad of interesting little ways like the sheen of delicate porcelain. These marks define how we think and feel and psychologists and doctors come up with specialised words for each way that life cracks the perfect sheen of sanity.. I truly, truly, havent met a perfectly and completely sane person on this planet yet.. I truly havent.

Some daddies ‘weirdly’ say that they dont want a little girl with mental issues..not realising that those sorts of girls are precisely the little ones who need Daddies. Duh! daft huh? These daddies are usually very single and very alone, and will probably stay that way, locked with the fanasy of ageplay in their head without wanting to take on the ‘burden’ of another unique persons real life problems .. awww. What they fail to remember is that a perfectly sane girl wouldnt tend to want to regress, or to create an unusal power dynamic in her relationship, she wouldnt want to recreate a strong paternal bond with a man, she wouldnt be attached to nappies, enjoy being spanked or dominated, she wouldnt probably enjoy wetting herself ..etc etc. and all the other aspects that make up ageplay.

And all these problems are fine because most daddies like or want someone to NEED them, to be there for someone to help and heal, and in doing so, that little part of their psyche, that part of themselves which is not normal and ‘broken’ is helped and healed in return. So.. please. Even though those issues are challanging, you will find someone to work through them together with, just be openand honest about yourself and your past and be ready to adapt to whatever your futture partner has had in his life and you will find a soulmate and a daddy. What you look for in a man is no different to “real” dating, Even vanilla dating is fraught with these real world issues. Fetish life is exactly the same at heart.

I hope that helps sweetheart, you are far from alone and you are far from worthless and I strongly doubt, that even though I havent seen any picture of you, that you would repulse anyone worth knowing anyway. Keep the faith little one.

Hugs Daddy Paul..